Inner Practice: I'm Scared. Everyday.
I live in fear every day.
Waking up, I fear of being late. Fear of forgetting to tap out when I get off the bus. Fear of things spoiling and being lost in finding repairs. Fear of rejection. Fear of being stupid. Fear of being silly. Fear of being criticized. Fear of the future. Fear of being alone. Fear of being with too many people. Fear of how everything would turn out. Fear of what next. Read about Fear in Traditional Chinese Medicine here.
When I was trained to do acupuncture, the first person that experienced the needle poking was me. I could still remember I was shaking and sweating when I took the needles in my hands. Fear kept me from doing the poking itself and all kinds of pain and mishaps that could happen flooded my mind. But when I finally inserted the needle into myself, it was almost not much of a feeling. I have imagined all horrors that did not happen. Yet I did not wait for the fear to subside. I just carried on with fear wrapping my heart and in my throat.
Remember that bravery is not a state that is absent of fear.
It is a state that has powerfully got fear as an element of it.
It is just that instead of letting that fear make it so that you freeze. Rather you grab that fear, pick it up like a small crying baby and you move forward with your fear.
It is very important to understand
all that will happen in this lifetime, if you are not brave enough to take a step forward, you will simply arrive at death - safely.
And just so you know, no one from the non-physical realm is going to give you much credit for that.
None of us are going to get out of this alive.