Inner Practice: I Don't Fit In
I remember watching Avicii’s music video of one of his works named ‘Wake me up’ a few years back. At that time, I could not quite understand what he was trying to portray and present to the audience.
Now, I can fully relate to the deeper meaning of his production.
For decades of my journey as a TCM doctor, the environment has been one that revers conventionalism and structure, on top of the fact that old perceptions are so deeply ingrained in society and people’s minds. And for a long period of time, I felt abnormal. And it sucks.
The word ‘abnormal’ holds connotations of putting one down, making one feel out of place, weird, strange, outcasted, unacceptable. Yet all I could do was bite on and fight an invisible battle. Alone. All the while trying to look sane in the eyes that glared at you with the ever-tinted glasses of seeing you as crazy.
Yet over years of practice and meeting people internationally, the myth of normal started to reveal its truth to me.
The fact that millions of people that share the same forms of mental pathology does not make these people sane.
Those that don’t fit it are in fact the gifted ones.
Those that are deemed abnormal are in fact the legends that have lived.
Those that are labelled crazy are in fact the ones who walk the paths as leaders, rather than tagging along as blind followers.
Who is normal?
Who is abnormal now?
Who is sane?
Who is insane now?
The battle is won.
Because I don’t fit in.
And I am proud of it.